My heart feels so heavy tonight. We just received news that the husband of a good friend of ours died suddenly tonight. No warning, nothing. I just can't even BEGIN to imagine the devastation and loss his family must be feeling right now. The futility of life has been on my mind and heart a lot lately...specifically after the anniversary of September 11, listening to one heartbreaking story after another. You just never know when this moment is your last. When it's your husband's last. Or friends. Or mom's. You can never take the moment you have for granted, because that may be all you have. Life is just too short. It's too short to be selfish and self-absorbed.
It's been on the forefront of my mind the last few days as I prioritize my day and get caught up in the craziness of work and life and house and bills. We pass up so many moments for something that we would have never wasted our time on, had we only known that this was our last, or our spouses last.
I would call my mom to tell her how much she means to me and how I appreciate her SO much, instead of cleaning the house
I would go to bed and snuggle with my husband, instead of staying up late on the computer for pointless things
I would resolve the petty disagreements and make up, instead of hold a grudge
I would love more, instead of protecting myself or being reserved
I would tell more people about what Jesus has done for me and about eternity, instead of worrying about being too forward or offending someone
I would have people over for pizza, instead of NOT having them over because I didn't make a home cooked meal
I would spend money on vacation and spending time with my family, instead of fixing the house that I can't take with me
I would greet the love of my life at the door, instead of yelling hi from the other room
I would love more. Spend more time with the people I love and less time with "things" and cleaning "things" and fixing "things
Would of, could of, didn't. I don't want that to ever be me. I don't ever want to live with regrets. And I don't want you to either...so go hug the person you love. Make up. Tell them you appreciate them. Don't put it off for "later", because later may never come. Savour the moments you have.